How do You Tell Grandma No?

So I spent a day with family away in the country. I love them all but I got a problem. How do I tell my grandmother that the skin picking comes in because I don't like how I look? There's something about family where their love doesn't let them see anything bad at you. Or even understand the idea that there could be something wrong. So without noticing what you get instead of support is the contrary. And if your family doesn't support you, it makes you think "Who will?". Every time I get the "you should eat more" I want to scream that I don't want to because I feel gross. Or the you should take care fo yourself more with "damm no matter what I still can't look at myself!"

That is what sucks about stupid BDD,what you are seeing may be invisible t everyone else, all you see, and you will do all you can until you are happy with what you see. How can people help you when they can't see what you see when you look in the mirror? I have been thinking of going back to the "professionals" because I can't even buy shoes with out tinking I look horrible no matter what everyone else around says. But maybe instead of the pill provider I will try the one that just talks. Maybe this one can pretend to care better than the last one did, I am convinced she didin't. All her sessions where about half an hour and then a prescription. Maybe when they don't have pills to dish out they take a bit more work into what is going on right? Maybe there is some kind of help? Maybe they can get me to tell my family that so far, I don't eat because nothing else makes me feel good about myself and not eating mean I am actually trying to get to my goal. Damn I hate this, and at the same time, if it wasn't for that I would be completely hopeless.

Thats why I belive in Pro-Ana. You never know what is going through the head of these peole, because even fellow sufferesrs can't tell. Don't tell us we are wrong or sick, try to actually find out what is going on. You never you might get a suprise as to why we do the thing we do. No, I am not saying to become a wanna-rexic, that is stupid. I didnt try to become ana, honestly I didnt even notice it. I just stopped eating one day and now after "recovering" I feel worse and my ana is even more out of control. And they make it worse when they don't give me a chance t talk it with them. So they got to deal, grandma, no more please.